Grace in Small Things: 242 of 365

1. Watching Kirstie and Phil – ah, happy



2. Watching Nick Knowles, my 18 year crush, transform a house, being all rugged and sensitive. Swoon.



3. Sharing Hot Fuzz with the kids. If you want to be a big cop in a small town…



4. Having Dave look after me and try and make it better



5. Eating biscuits

Grace in Small Things: 241 of 365

1. Kids being so lovely when I am creaky



2. Lovely time in La Perla – and the joy of being able to take the kids places I love now they are getting bigger



3. AMAZING theatre. Insane. Brilliant. Defying description – just awe inspiring



4. Mozz being so gorgeous and carrying me upstairs



5. Waking up to find Bertie curled up on my chest with tidy paws and his face in mine purring.

Grace in Small Things: 240 of 365

1. New tablet PC in bed. Brilliant.



2. Kids faces as they were unwrapping their presents



3. listening to the kids giggle as I cower in horror at Shaun of the Dead



4. Silence as I sat on the edge of the bed in my undies reading the glossy bit of the paper



5. Cute picture book from the kids

Grace in Small Things: 239 of 365

1. Not getting as left behind by K & F as I had thought that I might



2. Being marginally less achey



3. Having dinner with Mozz being all twinkly



4. Mexican wave looping Twickenham



5. Having the best handwarming present

Grace in Small Things: 238 of 365

1. Hugging Bertie’s little furry body and him purring and loving me back



2. Mum’s trifle



3. Being in my jamas almost all day with my family



4. My family being so lovely



5. Having the best husband ever.

Grace in Small Things: 237 of 365

1. Opening Mozz’s brilliant presents



2. Lovely day with family



3. warm snuggly being loved feeling



4. Wearing my new shirt and feeling fly



5. Having a gorgeous lovely Mozz husband

Grace in Small Things: 236 of 365

1. Lovely long lunch with Mozz



2. Nice chat and mince pie with Carolyn



3. Dancing to records with Mum



4. Mozz’s lovely card



5. Knowing that there is no more school for ELEVEN DAYS!!!



6. Wearing my Christmas hat :o)

Grace in Small Things: 235 of 365

1. Hot mince pie and cold ginger ice cream



2. Getting my data straight



3. Mozz helping me get it all in one place



4. Glass of baileys



5. Little thank you’s for last night

Grace in Small Things: 235 of 365

1. Working from my bed



2. Our home looking so cozy and lovely



3. Seeing lovelyBelle and beautiful Penny



4. The both having a nice time



5. Jonathan and Alsu coming and being lovely

Grace in Small Things: 234 of 365

1. Singing in harmony



2. In church and it sounding toe curlingly awesome



3. Lovely WI people



4. St Cross Hospital Chapel looking amazing in the snow



5. Mozz’s new shirt on my skin

Grace in Small Things: 233 of 365

1. Snow being pretty



2. Having a sexy Mozz



3. Watching “wanted” and mindless violence making me smile



4. Afternoon in helpdesk rather than the tense at my desk



5. Esme snuggles with hot chocolate

Grace in Small Things: 232 of 365

1. Having a lie in



2. Getting house clean and tidy (ish)



3. Stickiness of marshmallows



4. Finally getting round to stewing my apples



5. Long bath with my book

Grace in Small Things: 231 of 365

1. Esme sleeping in my lap as I try to eat



2. Finally finishing all my Christmas shopping



3. Finally finishing all my Christmas wrapping!



4. Mozz working out where to park so that I had the shortest route all the way around Southampton in a loop. The man is a genius, and I love him, and he did it without asking me or telling me and he is brilliant. Fact.



5. The snow being breathtakingly pretty in the fields and on the trees



6. Sitting in Starbucks feeling loved and like Team Mozz



7. Buying brand new shirts – that fit!

Grace in Small Things: 230 of 365

1. Mozz coming shopping to Tesco's in the evening with me so we don’t have to on Saturday when it is mental, even though we are both tired



2. Pretty twinkly lights on our tree



3. Esme helping me pick recipes and snuggling



4. Finding something at work easier than expected



5. Cards arriving and making people smile

Grace in Small Things: 229 of 365

1. Singing in harmony for the first time in ages



2. Being accepted as part of a group



3. Glass of wine at lunch



4. Coffee and pleasant meeting/gossip with J first thing



5. Nice Mozz coming home, rather than staying out drinking for hours

Grace in Small Things: 228 of 365

1. The receptionist at the dentist being nice to me in a really unforced kind of way



2. Lottie curling up on the sofa with me



3. Esme falling asleep on my lap



4. Chat with Carolyn as Fox, her cat, purred at me and demanded strokes



5. Making 2 separate things work.

Grace in Small Things: 227 of 365

1. Kirstie and Phil marathon



2. Hot chocolate



3. Peace and stillness



4. Snuggles with Esmecat



5. Bath with a book

Grace in Small Things: 226 of 365

1. Taking all my cards and wrapped presents to the post office



2. Finding 2 pairs of socks in the kids washing bin – whoop whoop! No dirty socks to find in drawers!



3. Wafts of cinnamon and orange Christmas smells



4. Esme being massively helpful but painfully cute



5. Bertie spooning with me in the morning

Grace in Small Things: 225 of 365

1. Putting our Christmas tree up, shiny with baubles and lights



2. Finishing off writing all my cards



3. Presents that we have are almost all wrapped



4. Eating chocolate



5. Having a Mozzto talk to about big stuff

Grace in Small Things: 224 of 365

1. Feeling a bit relieved to be getting some cards done



2. Nice message from Belle



3. Chat with lady from whomadeyourpants and deciding I might buy some to try with my Christmas money



4. The feeling of Mozz’s soft skin on his shoulder, all warm



5. Esme being all purry, snugly, and not at all helpful

Grace in Small Things: 223 of 365

1. Sleeping most of the day



2. Getting my Christmas card labels done



3. Seeing lovely Penny and her being lovely and gorgeous and fabulous and making me smile as ever



4. Arriving at the pub at exactly the same time as Mozz by complete co-incidence and him being incredibly sexy



5. Seeing lovely belle looking all happy

Grace in Small Things: 222 of 365

1. Lovely smelly bath



2. internet shopping fairy bringing me delicious smelling soap



3. Mozz cooking tea



4. Saffron being understanding and lovely



5. My sister being a crazy cat lady

Grace in Small Things: 221 of 365

1. Lottie going out all smart in her kit



2. Being in lovely pub with cosy surroundings



3. Meeting a lovely, lovely lady who does design work for TV



4. Very funny discussion on why some words are rude



5. Getting a little tipsy and feeling sparkly for a little while

Grace in Small Things: 220 of 365

1. Being able to leave work early and no one noticing/having to explain



2. Phil and Kirsty on telly being christmassy



3. Text from Guy



4. Bertie being allcute belly up by the radiator



5. NHS direct lady being nice when I was a bit panicky about Mozz being poorly

Grace in Small Things: 219 of 365

1. Lottie in her new kit



2. Everyone liking tea



3. My Mum



4. Talking to nice Liz



5. Mug of hot chocolate

Grace in Small Things: 218 of 365

1. Making Christmas cake at home with all my family being silly



2. First Mince Pie of the year



3. Catching up with Dom and Jen



4. Dom making bread!!!



5. Lovely, lovely time with family :o)

Grace in Small Things: 217 of 365

1. Getting my 3rd anniversary at goal shiny from a nice lady who was nice to me



2. Getting almost all of the Christmas shopping finished



3. Amaretto coffee and biscuit in Nero’s



4. Dozing on the sofa with Esme laying on me



5. Bertie sleeping next to me

Grace in Small Things: 216 of 365

1. Lovely morning meeting up with the WI



2. Getting lots done when our Christmas shopping



3. Treating myself to a cute felted robin from the Christmas market for half the price it was at in the shop round the corner



4. Nice man in the chocolate shed



5. Mozz cooking tea for me

Grace in Small Things: 215 of 365

1. Snow! Pretty, white, lovely, snow!



2. Getting the day off work for free as they closed the campus – eee!



3. Getting to spend the day out in it with Lottie who was delightful company



4. Getting a chunk of Christmas shopping done



5. Knowing I don’t have to go to work tomorrow!

Grace in Small Things: 214 of 365

1. Snuggling Mozz



2. Kids excitement at the first flurries of snow falling



3. The Autoglass man coming, and managing to fix the windscreen before it snowed



4. Esme sitting next to me and naughtily snuggling



5. Opening the first door on our advent calendars :o)

Grace in Small Things: 213 of 365

1. Seeing my spa partner in crime!



2. Seeing Guy and Neil



3. Christmas market on Southbank in the snow – all twinkly lights!



4. Lovely glass of merlot



5. Nice MSN chat with Tink

Grace in Small Things: 212 of 365

1. Facebook message from Beci



2. £15 pounds cash in an envelope in the post!



3. Esme sleeping next to me



4. Gossip with dad on the phone



5. Being warm in thermals

Grace in Small Things: 211 of 365

1. Finishing my book



2. Custard



3. Lie in



4. My heat pad – mm toasty



5. Warming Oli up by blowing on him

Grace in Small Things: 210 of 365

1. Lottie being all grown up and helping her get ready



2. Bertie being all loving when scared



3. Unexpected visit from Carolyn as she’d locked herself out



4. Family visit not being as odd as I had worried it might be



5. Mozz being lovely and gorgeous and brilliant with the kids

Grace in Small Things: 209 of 365

1. Knowing I am not alone in feeling weird



2. Eating flapjacks



3. Kids helping me clean



4. Bertie snuggles on the sofa whilst watching the film



5. Esme snuggles



6. Mozz.

Grace in Small Things: 208 of 365

1. Nice coffee over meeting



2. Feeling good in my high shoes



3. Email from Dom



4. Esme snuggles up on me, purring, for almost an hour



5. Kissing Mozz

Grace in Small Things: 207 of 365

1. Slight lie in



2. Getting tickets to see the Feeling – super stealthy purchase for a tiny venue – eee!



3. Nizlopi – getting the album out and listening all day, making me smile...



4. Being able to go to belle’s thing after all



5. Writing up and sending recipe to helpdesk

Grace in Small Things: 206 of 365

1. Firm announcement that we’re not buying another system



2. Neil and Mark chatting to me



3. Wrapping up the first lot of Christmas presents to go for this weekend



4. Brushing Bertie and him purring and quivering like a tart



5. Organising our trip up to London, baby!

Grace in Small Things: 205 of 365

1. Tea being super delicious



2. Lottie giving me her fudge bar



3. Bertiface and Esmecat being so very pleased to see me



4. Jeanette bringing me back a bendyman from her course



5. Wrapping up in my snuggly fluffy dressing gown

Grace in Small Things: 204 of 365

1. Buying my little wooden seahorse from the man in the craft market



2. Snuggling with Mozz



3. Esme in her box balanced on top of the bookcase, hehe



4. Hoovered house



5. Making a brief start on the Christmas shopping.

Grace in Small Things: 203 of 365

1. Feeling good in my new LBD :o)



2. Delicious meal – the beautiful calves liver and the astounding pistachio soufflé – never had one of those before!



3. Sexy Mozz in his 3 peice suit



4. The drink I had perched on a stool in the restaurant



5. Snuggling in bed with a Mozz in the morning

Grace in Small Things: 202 of 365

1. Disaronno and cranberry juice



2. Sarah saying she liked my jeans



3. Chris not leaving me behind



4. Text from my mum



5. Smiling at.. .(I can’t read my writing, or remember what I was smiling at – but it seems I was smiling. Hurrah!

Grace in Small Things: 201 of 365

1. People asking me things



2. People being nice



3. Catching the train home an hour earlier than expected



4. Holding Mozz’s hand on the walk home



5. Lovely pregnant lady on the train next to me



6. Nice guard telling me where the quietest bit to sit in the train was



7. My sister coming over for soup and TV



8. Feeling good about me for my own sake



9. Kissing Mozz off of the train

Grace in Small Things: 200 of 365

1. Getting off the train – escaping after a long while!



2. Discovering a power socket on the train



3. Esme snoring on my lap as I worked at the table



4. Soaking in the comedy bath in the hotel with a glass over the plug trying to stop the water escaping out



5. Fixing TUP with Gary’s help – just very glad that it’s sorted!

Grace in Small Things: 199 of 365

1. Garry asking for me for help, and me actually helping!



2. Escaping work early



3. Buying an LBD – I think my first since I was 16. I look awesome. Possibly.



4. Bertieface’s attentions



5. Laying in bed, all warm

Grace in Small Things: 198 of 365

1. Mozz’s body



2. Kids loving tea



3. WI meeting – lovely company



4. Being potentially asked out to a quiz by other people!



5. Feeling briefly like I belonged somewhere

Grace in Small Things: 197 of 365

1. Curled up on the sofa with Mozz and Bertie purring loudly



2. Esme snuggles after much miowing to demand it



3. 2nd unassisted roast dinner!



4. Lovely text from Dadu



5. Paying a chunk extra off of credit card and debt to mum and dad

Grace in Small Things: 196 of 365

1. Lottie bringing me coffee in the morning



2. All my family playing Kinect



3. Team Mozz in the Kitchen



4. Esme snuggles and face licks in the bathroom



5. Having a semi clean house!

Grace in Small Things: 195 of 365

1. Lunch with Lovely Liz



2. Playing on the Kinect thing with the kids all together



3. Mozz being all sexy in his 3 piece suit



4. Music on the Radio and singing along



5. Lottie helping with tea

Grace in Small Things: 194 of 365

1. Curling up with Mozz on the sofa watching a chick flick to cheer me up



2. Mozz pouncing – on demand, hehe



3. Mozz tidying up when I came in and couldn’t face it at all



4. Ninja chat with Ben



5. Lovely email saying what a brilliant job Tony and I had done

Grace in Small Things: 193 of 365

1. Giggling with Mozz on to the new Kinect thing



2. Tea being quicker and easier than I had thought



3. Lie in in the morning



4. Esme coming to see me working



5. Dropping Lottie off at her friend’s house

Grace in Small Things: 192 of 365

1. Oli and Lottie in town just being them



2. Giggling in Montezumas – part mischief, part pure loveliness



3. Little catch up with Saffron



4. Delicious sweetcorn chowder with tortillas and cheeeeese



5. Being told that I have made a significant contribution to the uni over the last year, and that I am good.

Grace in Small Things: 191 of 365

1. Oli’s looking after me when I was having a massive coughing fit



2. Oli giving me chocolates :o)



3. Writing things – actual documentation!



4. Lottie hugging me and saying that she loves me



5. My new top fitting well

Grace in Small Things: 190 of 365

1. Sleeping curled up on the couch with Bertie



2. Terribly exciting episodes of Spooks



3. Oli coming back from camp and being cute and grown up and tired and young all in one go



4. Mozz looking at me like he loves me



5. Not hurting as much as I expected to :o)

Grace in Small Things: 189 of 365

1. Nipping in and out of the yard like a pair of ninjas and cracking on sharpish first thing



2. Cold crisp sunny day, with mug of warm coffee sat on the tail of the van, feeling good about things



3. Absolutely brilliant awesome display with SO much adrenaline and brilliant-ness and we were just fabulous. Fabulous.



4. Feeling tired but happy – content that I did a good days work and was appreciated by all the other lads as one of them, not just some bit of fluff



5. Being bought a burger by the lovely PTA lady that tasted absolutely divine over the sulphur

Grace in Small Things: 188 of 365

1. Tony looking after me and making sure I was ok - including being a human sheild when one of our fireworks went a bit awry



2. Massive adrenaline rush after blowing things up



3. Lovely compliments, about both me and my work



4. Sitting contented in the pub with Tony, still buzzing, and a glass of wine



5. Coming home to a warm bath and a relaxing bubbly soak after a hard days work, feeling tired and content



6. Meeting Tony's owl!

Grace in Small Things: 187 of 365

1. Jack walking me back to the metro out of choice to make sure I was ok



2. People being lovely to me



3. Writing up notes on the plane and feeling business like



4. New hairclips



5. Being at home and feeling like I was tucked under a calm, warm blanket

Grace in Small Things: 186 of 365

1. Seeing my nice Doctor



2. Drinking coffee in the sunshine with mum



3. Bertieface trying to stow away in Oli’s Bergen



4. Oli getting all grown up



5. Esme all over mum

Grace in Small Things: 185 of 365

1. Sorting out HTML email. This is nerdy but pleasing.



2. Upgrade now ticked off list – one less thing to worry about



3. Delicious tea



4. Esme snuggles



5. Jack being nice

Grace in Small Things: 184 of 365

1. Mozz’s body.



2. Mozz’s buttocks



3. Telling the kids long words and introducing them to music



4. Tea being tasty, delicate and unusual



5. Mozz Hoovering

Grace in Small Things: 183 of 365

1. Very long lie in



2. Exciting book



3. Seeing my sister and her being nice and smelling like home



4. Sitting on the same sofa as Mozz



5. Seeing house opposite’s pumpkins on the step all lit up and glowing

Grace in Small Things: 182 of 365

1. Having a Mozz who will go to get the car to fetch me home from town



2. Less childish than usual behaviour in Primark from Mozz



3. Delicious tea I did not make



4. Nero’s. For so many reasons.



5. Bertie stealing my seat and flirting outrageously with me

Grace in Small Things: 181 of 365

1. Being sent back to bed by the Doctor – felt like it was ok to go because I had been sent by someone in authority!



2. Fruit salad – felt like being little again



3. Reading new book in the bath



4. Clean pyjamas all soft on my skin



5. Cats looking after me with little worried furry faces (yes, I’m aware I'm a crazy cat lady)

Grace in Small Things: 180 of 365

1. Neil checking up on me on MSN



2. Esme snuggles



3. Being warm at home



4. Trip to Hampshire Wardrobe and all the excited ladies there reminding me of how things used to be



5. Nice chat with my sister over a cup of herbal tea and a cheesey muffin

Grace in Small Things: 179 of 365

1. More compliments on the lovely shoes



2. Mozz pouncing



3. Esme snuggles



4. Feeling less ill than yesterday



5. Chance to catch up with Gary in helpdesk

Grace in Small Things: 178 of 365

1. Mark’s kindness going upstairs for me to get my brolly so I didn’t get wet outside



2. Relief of getting loan car in time before the garage shut in face of adversity



3. Nice survey man



4. Overly relieved DHL courier man



5. Relief of heat pads

Grace in Small Things: 177 of 365

1. Spending time with Beci – so lovely to see her and be just the same after all these years



2. Spending time with mum and dad for a cup of tea and feeling safe and warm



3. Bracknell Tyre and Battery being exactly the same after all these years – felt nice to be back there!



4. Mum saying that she’d do my curtains



5. Pretty sunlight glinting on the Thames and swans gliding by

Grace in Small Things: 176 of 365

1. Bertie being all floosielike on the sofa



2. Gentle soothing bathwater on my achey bits



3. The strange but pleasant texture of giant couscous



4. Knowing I have the day off tomorrow to meet with Beci



5. The peace of having our house to ourselves again

Grace in Small Things: 175 of 365

1. The lovely friendly welcome in Plain and Fancy



2. The delicious feeling as the cocktails snake their way through my body



3. Having the most lovely brilliant marvellous time with Nickki



4. Being thoroughly grateful for the gifts sent to me in the oddest ways by the fates/God/the universe



5. Friendship – it’s a marvellous thing.

Grace in Small Things: 174 of 365

1. First mouthful of gravy, peas and potatoes



2. Bertie sniffing my feet all whiskery and tickly



3. Getting very excited about meeting up with Beci on Monday



4. Getting excited about seeing Nickki tomorrow



5. Things being less odd than I imagined

Grace in Small Things: 173 of 365

1. Warm snugly lovely soft Esme cat loving



2. The absolutely glorious weather walking through the cemetery – all golden sunlight and glittering frost, excited dog rolling in the grass making me feel glad to be alive and in it



3. Getting back to 2.5lbs over goal – 4.5 off!



4. The smell of clean sheets



5. Giggling that Tina and I had come to work dressed the same

Grace in Small Things: 172 of 365

1. Lovely pretty cold Autumn day



2. Friendliness of the ocado delivery driver



3. Kids excitability and chatting about skiing



4. definite appreciation of tea



5. Chat with Garry about saunas and snow on MSN

Grace in Small Things: 171 of 365

1. Being made to feel so very welcome at the WI meeting I went to



2. Feeling a little bit like me for a moment



3. lovely sunlight on the downs and all the pretty trees turning



4. Nickki confirming our girly trip out on Saturday



5. Playing with Bertie and my shoelaces

Grace in Small Things: 170 of 365

1. Laying in bed rather than going to work



2. Magic Janet coming and being lovely



3. Everyone being appreciative of tea



4. Lottie helping me with tea



5. Oli helping me clear up the mess I made when breaking bowls etc



6. Tony calling me and being just lovely

Grace in Small Things: 169 of 365

1. Having a little lie in



2. the snugly quiet moment with Mozz



3. My first unassisted roast dinner coming out well



4. first hot water bottle of the season



5. Winning the lottery producing a particularly giggly snog!

Grace in Small Things: 168 of 365

1. Having a facepack with Lottie



2. Coffee and people watching in Southampton



3. Morning Mozz snuggle



4. Pink Ladies in hairdressers



5. Mozz telling me that he loves me and it feeling like it used to

Grace in Small Things: 167 of 365

1. Party Rings in my meeting



2. The huge mushroom that is growing at the side of the footpath on the way to work



3. The smooth feeling i’m left with after using my swanky new cleanser



4. Bertie’s little snugly face in the morning



5. Being sent to bed at 8pm – and going

Grace in Small Things: 166 of 365

1. Rhubarb and custard sweetie from Ben



2. My test upgrade going without a hitch: well versed now...



3. The kids making their own breakfast, unprompted



4. Giggling at the silly noise that my soup made coming out of it's flask



5. MSN conversation with Jeanette about the rediculous conversations the boys were having - her comment about a snail being more of an adrenaline junjie than them had me shaking with laughter. Naughty :o)

Grace in Small Things: 165 of 365

1. Being at home, when I was feeling rougher than average



2. Being at home to rescue Bertie as he fell down the back of the 8ft bookcase...



3. The overwhelming feeling of releif whe I realised that he was ok, his little furry body all clingy to me as he purred and nuzzled me



4. Watching Spooks with Esmecat snuggling and settling down watching too



5. Getting a little bit of a lie in!

Grace in Small Things: 164 of 365

1. The incongruity of the beautiful pretty view accross the cemetry this in the morning sunlight and Rage Against the Macine being angry in my ears



2. The incredibly pretty leaves that are turning at the end of our road - pinks and reds and greens and yellows - stunning



3. Esme Snuggles



4. Stealing Mozz's snuggly jumper



5. Snoozing on the couch with a blanket, a cat, Kirsty and Phil!

Grace in Small Things: 163 of 365

1. Talking to nice Canadian Chronic Babe



2. Hugh getting milk from the SU shop for me so I could have a coffee



3. Kids coing home from cadets and telling me they love me



4. Bertie's snuggles ending up upside down and falling off of the sofa



5. Tea being more tasty than I expected!

Grace in Small Things: 162 of 365

1. Lovely lie in



2. Making food ahead of time - knowing that I've got at least one easy nights tea this week



3. Sortnig all the veg stuff out in the fridge



4. Snuggling up with a mozz



5. Getting the second coat of paint on the fireplace so it's now looking lovely

Grace in Small Things: 161 of 365

1. Seeing Tony and him being all protective of me



2. Seeing Dad's surfboard and how proud he is of it



3. Being at home with mum and dad



4. Things being ok with the rest of the crew, even if Rob blanked me entirely - probably for the best...



5. Esme's soft post bath snuggles



6. Lovely bath with my book

Grace in Small Things: 160 of 365

1. Seeing lovely Belle



2. Chatting with mum on the phone



3. Gary doing me a favour on MSN - again



4. Fixing my DB and getting things going again



5. Seeing lovely Andy at PAF

Grace in Small Things: 159 of 365

1. Val at WW telling me how lovely I look



2. Pretty campus in the sunshine



3. Sniging fairground attraction and Dumdums songs to the cats



4. Saffron telling me that my hair clips were almost as fabulous and subversive as the previous days shoes



5. Text messages making me smile

Grace in Small Things: 158 of 365

1. Being told I had fabulous shoes



2. Seeing lovely Gary work his magic



3. Giggling at Eddie Izzard



4. Esme's wet node on mine



5. Wearing my fabulous shoes :)

Grace in Small Things: 157 of 365

1. Finding my little gold star keyring that celebrates another year of being at goal at WW shining through the leaves outside work when I had resigned myself to it being lost forever



2. Delicious dinner



3. Nice oomphy Riocca



4. Nice company with Mozz and Gary



5. Little comforting bitch session with Neil - I'm not alone and it's nice to know sometimes!

Grace in Small Things: 156 of 365

1. Lovely clean house after Magic Janet has been



2. Talking to Nickki and having a proper catch up



3. Early in bed



4. Kids loading the dishwasher unprompted :o)



5. Suddenly lovely day as I emerged from the office into beautiful autumn sunlight



6. Making my Script work (with a little help)

Grace in Small Things: 155 of 365

1. Lie in all warm and snugly with Mozz



2. Yummy brunch cooked by Mozz



3. Feeling like I had finished something (even though it did turn out that I hadn’t, at all)



4. Coffee and gossip with Lottie



5. Clean sheets in bed

Grace in Small Things: 154 of 365

1. Tasting things at the farmers market



2. Lie in in bed with Mozz snuggled behind me and Bertie in front



3. Kids arriving and both saying I love you



4. Esme snuggled on me as I read



5. Possible prospect of joining the WI

Grace in Small Things: 153 of 365

1. My friend coming out to play



2. Coconut and Date porridge



3. Seeing Shel on the webcam



4. Music – loud in the living room, dancing...



5. Getting a lift in to work with Shane who was passing

Grace in Small Things: 152 of 365

1. Yummy satay noodles



2. Delicious lovely Martini



3. Peaceful time on my own chilling



4. The satisfaction of being right at work



5. Ols taking the recycling out for me – totally un asked : )

Grace in Small Things: 151 of 365

1. Mozz getting his contract potentially sorted



2. Esme snuggles on the sofa and her licking my nose



3. Oli helping me with their lunches and making hot chocolate for everyone



4. Nice catch up with Garry on MSN



5. Getting my shortcut right on the way to Cadets!

Grace in Small Things: 150 of 365

1. Snuggling with Mozz and Esme watching Spooks



2. Attacking Mozz when he got home



3. Wearing purple elf tights



4. Making friends with Denise on Facebook



5. Discovering whilst eating porridge that the alpen bars are only 1 point – nom!



6. Trimming Bertie’s grey hair!

Grace in Small Things: 149 of 365

1. Cantering through the forest with mud flying up from the hooves in front of me and wind in my face and letting out an irrepressible cackle of glee



2. Sitting in Starbucks on my own with a coffee feeling calm and satisfied



3. Being picked up by the lovely mobility van man so I could manage the ride rather than having to walk miles and break before I even got on the horse



4. Seeing a Kestrel



5. Being back home with my Mozz and my Pusscats and the kids

Grace in Small Things: 148 of 365

1. Laying in the sauna all warm with my book



2. Nice enthusiastic chat with Neil and Guy about Terry Pratchett



3. Being in the space bath – lights and bubbles and steam – I felt like a magic porridge pot!



4. Waking up from the best nights sleep I’ve had in a long time



5. Giggling whilst playing just dance on the Wii

Grace in Small Things: 147 of 365

1. Eating Danish pastry and drinking coffee with Emma in the sunshine before my spa day



2. Sitting all warm and damp in the steam room that smelled like a polo



3. Having a lovely long lunch with pasta and wine and feeling so relaxed in my dressing gown…



4. The most relaxing facial I have ever had



5. Pleasant company and lots of giggling over dinner

Grace in Small Things: 146 of 365

1. Lovely relaxing bath



2. Lounging on the sofa in my jamas
   



3. Chilling out and slowly getting my stuff together



4. Not breaking when driving when I thought I might



5. Tasty tea being cooked by someone other than me

Grace in Small Things: 145 of 365

1. Seeing Penny on the way home from work and getting a surprise hug



2. Being chummy with Carol at WW



3. Only putting on 4lbs



4. Giggling with the cashier at Sainsbury’s at the contents of my shopping



5. Sorting Alma out with her printing by the medium of magic

Grace in Small Things: 144 of 365

1. Being gratified to discover that not all men are misogynistic knobs



2. Jeanette buying me coffee and sharing a pastry



3. Neil bringing me a square of chocolate to cheer me up



4. Bertieface curling up with me in bed, purring



5. Shiny conkers falling from the trees

Grace in Small Things: 143 of 365

1. Esme snuggles watching Spooks



2. Showing Liz how to do stuff – and it being appreciated



3. My tea being all delicious



4. Looking at the pretty shoes



5. Facebook anniversary messages



6. Nice email from WW lady

Grace in Small Things: 142 of 365

1. Drinking most of my half of Guinness and thinking of Aunt Li the whole time



2. Going on a funny little tram



3. Having a Mozz who doesn’t mind my creaks



4. Being back with the pusscats



5. Our internet being potentially fixed!

Grace in Small Things: 141 of 365

1. Best, most delicious liver ever



2. seeing seals in the wild!



3. Snoozing on Mozz’s shoulder on the Dart



4. Sea air and Sunshine



5. Delicious sleepy breakfast



6. Getting the bus at night



7. Anniversary cards and feeling all loved



8. Having lovely mellow red wine with meaty tea!

Grace in Small Things: 140 of 365

1. Seeing Lovely Dee and her being so lovely



2. Delicious breakfast – egg and soldiers!



3. The beautiful shoes are mine!



4. Delicious Dinner



5. The lovely manager lady in Café en Seine helping me up to the ladies in the staff lift



6. Sitting for ages in the bar with Mozz



7. Snuggling and holding hands with Mozz



8. Feeling pretty – almost all day!

Grace in Small Things: 139 of 365

1. Delicious Tart



2. Delicious Cake



3. Sitting on Bench chilling in the cold sunlight in Trinity College



4. Realising we’re on holiday, and stopping, and crying tears of sheer relief



5. Lovely dinner with lovely wine



6. Chilled out flight with pretty and exciting views



7. Discovering how nice our B&B is



8. Oh So Helpful Ladies in reception



9. Finishing a samurai Sudoku the day I started it



10. Bertie’s whiskery face sniffing my hussy red toes in curiosity

Today was a bloody brilliant day.

Grace in Small Things: 138 of 365

1. Lovely bubbly bath



2. Mozz doing my toes so that they are comedy hussy red



3. Chat with my sister whilst in the bath



4. Booking my horse ride - pppfrrrd!



5. Holiday tomorrow - eeee!

Grace in Small Things: 137 of 365

1. Making my vista work



2. Nice day at work with Gary and J



3. Seeing the lovely Liz breifly



4. Little chat with Carolyn on the phone



5. Lovely text message from Sue

Grace in Small Things: 136 of 365

1. Delicious dinner at Zizi's



2. Walking hand in hand with Mozz



3. Nice company and being out



4. Penny texting me



5. Writing TUP that works with Gary

Grace in Small Things: 135 of 365

1. Laughing till I hurt at Ross Noble



2. Sunshine on my desk



3. One night stand by Misteeq on my iPod



4. Walking home with Mozz



5. Laughing at Rick's stupid address

Grace in Small Things: 135 of 365

1. Lovely warm cinnamony bath



2. The making of the ikea cat advert. Made me smile a lot.



3. Also, the video of Prnice Charles giggling at a Cat Organ with Brian Blessed giggling behind him. Brililant.



4. Custard



5. Lovely catch up with my mum on the phone

Grace in Small Things: 134 of 365

1. Lottie wanting lots of hugs from me



2. Oli telling me what a nice time he had had



3. Standing and looking sideways at Dave and the kids having a nice time at the Proms with me - me shaing one of my favourite things with them



4. Pomp and Circumstance and Land of Hope and Glory



5. Really belting out some of the songs and being in good company - and being pleasantly surprised I can hit the top note in Rule Britannia (still - I thought my voice was more fucked than that - turns out it's just rusty and never gets warm any more!)

Grace in Small Things: 133 of 365

1. Nappnig on the sofa accidently



2. Wearing my frock and feeling nice



3. Lottie coming up to cuddle me



4. Being exvited about Gary's visit next week



5. Laughing (if a bit hysterically) about work with Jeanette

Grace in Small Things: 132 of 365

1. Being so busy that I didn't graze so much



2. CSI with t'interwebs, cats and blanket



3. Losing 3lbs at WW - means I'm back in control...for the moment



4. Hot chocolate



5. Driving too fast around corners

Grace in Small Things: 131 of 365

1. Lottie asking me to come in with her as she started cadets *proud*



2. Soup for lunch



3. Jeanette's little waving sweep picture on MSN



4. Esme sleeping on my thigh as I worked



5. Helping 88 year old PHD student enrol!

Grace in Small Things: 130 of 365

1. Little cobwebs woven between blades of grass glistening with dew in the sunshine on my walk to work



2. Actually acheiving something at work and making life easier for people



3. - and it being appreciated!



4. Catching up with 7 days worth of Grace in Small Things and remembering lots of nice things as I typed it up



5. Hot Chocolate



6. Snuggling up to Mozz's hot chest on the sofa

Grace in Small Things: 129 of 365

1. Being busy in a nice way at work and actually speaking to people



2. It not starting to rain heavily till I got to the front door



3. Tacos for tea!



4. Bertie's excitement when I got in - all purring and headbutting and welcoming :o)



5. Magic Janet having been - so lovely and refreshing to come home to!

Grace in Small Things: 128 of 365

1. Finding my prescription had arrived in Botts when I was worried it might not be there



2. Coffe with papers in Neros



3. Kissing Mozz, holding his hand walking up the High Street



4. Buying pretty red scarf to go in my hair



5. New Terry Pratchett book! Eeee!

Grace in Small Things: 127 of 365

1. Going back to bed for snuggles with Mozz



2. Lovely cocktails



3. Esme sleeping on my lap for hours



4. Being drunk enough that I didn't hurt



5. Seeing a double rainbow!

Grace in Small Things: 126 of 365

1. Raspberry vodka and Lemonade



2. Cooking tea with Ols



3. Gorgeous lovely Lush bath



4. Being warm enough to take off my jumper



5. Being cheered up by nice texts though I didn't go out

Grace in Small Things: 125 of 365

1. Yummy cake at Hilliers in the sunshine with Jeanette and Liz



2. Booking spa day with Emma - Eee!



3. Having lovely support from WW ladies



4. Having a Mozz with soft warm shoulder to cry on



5. Roasted beetroot and butternut squash for tea

Grace in Small Things: 124 of 365

1. Lovely message from folksy seller



2. Laughing at Tribal consultants photos on facebook



3. Lovely view from my window at work



4. Having a Mozz who'll get me drinks for my tablets



5. Waking up being warm

Grace in Small Things: 123 of 365

1. Lovely bubbly bath with Pratchett



2. Finally gettinghow to do Lottie's curtains



3. Finally taking coat to dry cleaners



4. Finally finding and buying new hoover bags on internet (small things, eh?!)



5. Snoozy time in jamas with the paper and a particularly nice coffee

Grace in Small Things: 122 of 365

1. Steam trains!



2. Seeing my daad so excited



3. Having a house full of family



4. chocolate coated flapjacks



5. The smell of my family – sort of washing powdery and distinct to how our house smells.

Grace in Small Things: 121 of 365

1. Giggling at Knight and Day’s silliness



2. Getting sweet hearted at the ice cream counter at the cinema



3. Having a lie in



4. finishing a samurai Sudoku



5. snuggling up with Lottie in bed in the morning, rubbing noses and gossiping like girlies

Grace in Small Things: 120 of 365

1. Hanging our new big mirror in the living room



2. Kids and Dave offering me bits of their cake and coffee



3. Bertieface snuggling on sofa with everyone



4. Mozz’s tiger stripes



5. WW Denise checking up on me



6. Discovering when the awful finally happened and my big toenail fell off, that there had been another one lurking underneath!

Grace in Small Things: 119 of 365

1. Juliette being nice



2. My whole day being nicer than expected



3. The kids being lovely



4. Delicious wine and chicken



5. Driving for 2hours without breaky badly, and crossing the petrol forecourt at speed!

Grace in Small Things: 118 of 365

1. Playing Articulate with the kids, Penny, Jon and Lou and no one minding the kids were there



2. Reading my Pratchett book



3. Giggling a lot at some of the clues for Articulate – “no she went on her own” – JAMAICA!



4. Getting Oli’s school shoes first pair he tried on



5. Oli’s appreciative slurping of coffee and poached egg muffin

Grace in Small Things: 117 of 365

1. Bertie snuggling under my arm on the sofa



2. Taking the kids to see the Ducklings in the Barracks



3. Lottie looking and being so pretty



4. Delicious ice cream and coffee beans



5. Enjoying the wickedness of knowing where the kids were whilst Pam didn’t.

Grace in Small Things: 116 of 365

1. Bertie snuggles all spooned up under the duvet with me in the morning



2. Curling up on the sofa in our nely lovely living room in many jumpers all cosy



3. Seeing both my boys (Mozz and Bertie) sat on the sofa opposite me in similar sprawls



4. Walking home in the sunshine - my walk is so pretty



5. Playing "guess the Pratchett book from the quote" via MSN without any books present!

Grace in Small Things: 115 of 365

1. Sitting outside starbucks with the sun warm on my face, a vanilla latte in hand. Bliss.



2. Driving our car with the top down in the sunshine



3. Feeling like a normal person, rather than my Fibro, just for one day



4. Hanging up our pictures and getting a bit straight



5. Sharing our award winning fireworks with Mozz

Grace in Small Things: 114 of 365

1. Our amazingness with teamwork. Seriously. We're awesome when we work together.



2. Our pretty newly painted living room - an us room!



3. Our pretty newly installed picture rail that looks like it's always been there



4. Our new and excessive lights - with Mozz's head in them like a swimming hat!!



5. Eating toasted fruit bread with butter

Grace in Small Things: 113 of 365

1. having a blue fromt room, rather than a white smudgey one with a handprint on the ceiling. Our ceilings are 14ft high - how DID it get there?!!



2. Unexpectedly seeing my mum and dad, and mum being so pretty!



3. Being Team Mozz and rocking. We whip through DIY like no one's business when we're focussed



4. Getting what we actualy wanted in Homebase - first time!



5. Being in a sandwich between my two boys - Mozz spooned up behind me and Bertie curled up purring in front!

Grace in Small Things: 112 of 365

1. Being fed chocolate mini rolls and cafietere coffee by the careers department. I love meetings with them!



2. Eating Party rings in our inter team meeting where nothing productive ever happens



3. Being naughty with Mozz



4. Bertie's whiskery face eating treats from my hand whilst purring



5. Getting the little kick I get when I'm actually good with WW and not mental!

Grace in Small Things: 111 of 365

1. Wearing awesome shoes and feeling tall, long legged and sexy



2. Esme snuggles as I was trying to work



3. Getting an unexpected afternoon at home



4. Chatty little BT man making me feel like our internet will be fixed at some point



5. Mozz cuddles standing on the step, smelling his soft warm skin on the side of his neck.... mmmm :o)

Grace in Small Things: 110 of 365

1. Neil being back at work and sharing his brilliant holiday pics



2. Mozz reading me comedy catalogs in bes



3. Mozz kissing me in the way that makes me go all funny



4. Getting another surprise email from another lovely WW lady



5. Sleeping in till 8am

Grace in Small Things: 109 of 365

1. Even more Shooting Stars - this time live and on the right night!



2. Booking our anniversary holiday to Dublin, Eee!



3. Looking at the Spa webpage for centreparks, oooh...



4. Watching lots of delicious cakes



5. Being woken up by Bertie's damp nose on my nose!

Grace in Small Things: 108 of 365

1. Butternut squash and red pepper risotto - Mmm



2. Sherlock - finally watching the last episode



3. Writing



4. Watching more Shooting Stars



5. Esme lovin' and demanding cheesecake!

Grace in Small Things: 107 of 365

1. Everyone saying how lovely our cheesecake was - and it vanishing so fast



2. Haveing a nice chat with Mum and the Twins



3. Eating lovely food



4. Lovely company at Auntie Lindas



5. Watching Shooting Stars in bed with Mozz

Grace in Small Things: 106 of 365

1. Nice time going round the Monkeh and Jonathan’s house for dinner



2. Walking arm in arm with Mozz in the rain under our big umbrella



3. The little internet man coming to fix our internet by climbing a pole



4. My wicked cheesecake



5. Looking for a holiday with Mozz

Grace in Small Things: 105 of 365

1. Snuggling on the sofa with Mozz



2. Receiving an email from WW Katie, completely out of the blue!



3. Esme snuggles on the sofa whilst looking at holidays on the internet



4. Having my tea cooked for me and not having to do any of it at all



5. Helping a man called Hamish. I mean, who knew people were really called that?!!

Grace in Small Things: 104 of 365

1. Watching a whole program of the cutest sea otters on the telly. They look so cute, and also just like my dad in the sea :o)



2. Going to the cinema to see the A Team with the kids – pure escapist ridiculous cheese.



3. Ben and Jerries. Yum.



4. Meeting/gossipfest with Saffron



5. Berties little tongue that sticks out when he is tired!

Grace in Small Things: 103 of 365

1. Watching NCIS with the kids



2. Eating tea with the kids and them being nice



3. Soothing hot chocolate



4. Esme snuggles whilst trying to work



5. Bertie snuggles whilst trying to work

Grace in Small Things: 102 of 365

1. Nice warm bath with wine and my iPod



2. Cinnamon on top of my Latte



3. Having a bit of quiet time to myself on my own



4. Discussing Cheesecake with Shel



5. Singing, loudly, in the bath. I’d forgotten, kind of, I could sing like that...

Grace in Small Things: 101 of 365

1. Speaking to Mark on MSN



2. Looking at lovely spa treatments and dreaming...



3. Frozen chocolate mousse



4. Nice phonecall with mum



5. Being grateful all over again for nice people

Grace in Small Things: 100 of 365

100. Wow. That seems an awful lot!

1. Baklava – sticky sweet rosy goodness.



2. Seeing lovely Guy and Chris and Emma and Helen and Rich.



3. Having Mozz paint my toes for me. I’m so lucky.



4. Being invited places



5. Being able to drive through London without totally and utterly losing the plot and freaking out with stress. Another demon semi conquered…

Grace in Small Things: 99 of 365

1. Nice chat with the man in the post office



2. Having the warm fuzzies from sending my Twin biscuits and jaffa cakes in the post



3. All of Oli’s clothes now smell ok again



4. Bertie laying on me and Ols on the sofa, flirting like a terrible flirt cat



5. My lovely honeymoon jamas. Make me smile every time I put them on.

Grace in Small Things: 98 of 365

1. Having Pulp’s common people in my ears on the way to work – what else could I do?



2. Walking to work at speed and not arriving in pain



3. Having a really lovely lunch catch up with cake and coffee in Hilliers with Liz – and getting up the courage to ask if she’d like a girly night out sometime with cocktails and nice social things – and her saying yes!



4. Nice gossipy catch up with Saffron



5. Marvellous cocktails with my sister and Mozz in the best cocktail bar ever whilst wearing my going away pirate frock



6. Having much better service than I ever expected in DimT whilst eating yummy pork buns and dim sum with Mozz…



7. Singing, loudly, in the bath with a rose spritzer, a mountains of bubbles and my iPod in the BEST mood in a very long while



8. Watching tiny ducklings float around the pond in the Barracks at midnight…

Today was brilliant.

Grace in Small Things: 97 of 365

1. Esme alternately snoozing and purring on my lap as I worked



2. Old Ibiza uncovered tracks on the radio as I got in the car



3. Speaking to Dave Parker on the phone after I managed to totally break their system, oops…



4. Chatting to my sister in Sainsburys car park about skincare and existential crises



5. Taking a particularly cute picture of Esme with her new kipper toy

Grace in Small Things: 96 of 365

1. Finding my bits of paper!



2. Fixing the laptop so I can sign into MSN again – ha! It will not triumph!



3. Exciting prospect of bits of software that actually do things



4. Esmesnuggles on the sofa



5. Walking to work with Rooster in my ears and arriving at work feeling smiley for once

Grace in Small Things: 95 of 365

1. Walking home to Clubbed to Death by Rob D - reminded me of walking between tube stations coming home from university...



2. At a normal speed!!!



3. Slight excitement at a new project at work and possible future things...



4. Organising to have Lunch with Liz on Friday



5. Esmecat Lovin' me, and settling sat on top of my arm as I sit on the couch trying to type

Grace in Small Things: 94 of 365

1. Feeling awesome in skinny jeans and high heels - my legs go on FOREVER.



2. Pusscats nestling into my bosom...



3. Crazing chasing cats leaping about and making me laugh



4. Rasberries and merangues



5. The moment when our internet came back after being broken!

Grace in Small Things: 93 of 365

1. Belgian chocolates - including a lovely pink marzipan strawberry complete with a tiny little green plastic stalk in the top



2. Lunch with JP and Faith - nice people and nice to see someone!



3. Finding warm brownines at the bottom of my chocolate brownie sundae



4. Making love to Mozz in the afternoon...



5. Breakfast and coffee with Lottie

Grace in Small Things: 92 of 365

1. Seeing my Mum and Dad



2. Watching St Trinians with a glass of wine



3. Having a litte moment or five of silence on my own curled up on the sofa with the paper



4. Watching the cats with their new kipper toy that they seem to love - much headbutting and dribbling and attacking of it!



5. Getting a new (replacement) sunny looking bag for life from tescos

Grace in Small Things: 92 of 365

1. Seeing the pusscats again :o) Prrrrrrrrr...



2. Our own bed with clean bedding



3. Bad jokes by text from my Dad



4. Sending repeated naughty "are we there yet?!" texts to Dave whilst he was driving



5. Having my lovely Mozz, always.

Grace in Small Things: 91 of 365

1. Warming up in the café



2. Blowing Raspberries on Oli's warm tummy



3. Lottie's mental made up songs



4. Playing "Extreme Boxes" and pop up pirate with Lottie whilst the others watched the footie



5. Text from Lou saying that Bertie is "less sturdy" now than earlier in the week!

Grace in Small Things: 90 of 365

1. Delicious pudding



2. Nice wine making things go away



3. Nice lady in Lush showing me things



4. Driving in the sunshine with the top down, headscarf on and sunglasses in 50's starlet style



5. Thinking that it won't be long now till I'm back with Bertieface and Esmecat

Grace in Small Things: 89 of 365

I'm hoping this is to follow. I seem to have lost my bit of paper. I'm all a bit upset about it. I'm sure it will turn up.

[edit - whoop! I found it on my desk :o) ]

1. Napping all afternoon



2. Lovely coffee and cake



3. Boiled egg, and fondant fancies



4. Knowing Monkeh and Belle are with the furballs, so they aren't lonely any more



5. Handsome twinkly Mozz's sexy arse!

Grace in Small Things: 88 of 365

1. Ferry - cross the Mersey!



2. Seeing where Fred's weather map used to be!



3. Text from Fi



4. Knowing the kids don't mind my slowness



5. The moment where I realised tha being left behind = no squawking 4 year old for the day

Grace in Small Things: 87 of 365

1. Having a Mozz who loves me



2. Lovely Lottie trying to make it better



3. Fudge. Sugary lovely soft sweet fudge.



4. Sherlock Holmes



5. Realising how lucky I am that most people I see day to day are nicer than I realised

Grace in Small Things: 86 of 365

1. Getting weeds out of Dave's mum's drive so that it's all clear and tidy for her



2. Delicious Chinese - especially my chicken chow mien



3. Lovely conversation with Lottie where she suddenly realised, 10 months in, that technically I'm her step mother. But she says she loves me too much to call me a step mother, I'm just me. I felt all puffed up and so full of happiness I could have burst.



4. Tikka's ears all excited when I played with her with her ball



5. Teamwork with the kids - a nice feeling

Grace in Small Things: 85 of 365

1. Garrys pictures from his campus in Skye - so pretty



2. Meeting the man from Finance who appears to have a brain in his head, the ability to do forward thinking and a desire for change



3. Finishing an email about unicode I've been putting off for weeks



4. Sorting out UHI's UCAS problem



5. Ticking things off of lists

Grace in Small Things: 84 of 365

1. Coming home to a big purry welcome from the cats



2. Ginger biscuits coated in dark chocolate, sat on a bench on the platform at Birmingham International Station with Jeanette in the sunshine



3. Coming home to a Mozz to snuggle



4. Packing done with no tears!



5. Sitting on a couch in the Hilton, cross legged in my long stripy socks learning SRL syntax from David and Garry. I felt clever and tired and comfortable and happy and content.

Grace in Small Things: 83 of 365

1. Being told I was the most beautiful woman in the room, by someone other than Dave.



2. Twice :o)



3. Seeing Dave P and Gary and Garry and other nice people that I like and think I'm clever, all in one place



4. Winning at Roulette. In my dreams, I have a plan...



5. Having a bath in a bath where my toes fitted under the water without getting into a contortionists act



6. Watching Dave P try and become one of us by assuming a pseudonym - Drake Silver - and claiming to be our DBA all night rather than a consultant :)

Grace in Small Things: 82 of 365

1. Frozen yoghurt



2. Clean bedding



3. Butternut squash



4. Finally deploying smart client at work



5. Drawing a smiley face in Biro on Mozz's bum whilst he wasn't really paying attention, and giggling to myself silently as he never worked out what I'd done...

Grace in Small Things: 81 of 365

1. Sticky sausages. Yum.



2. The soft, sticky marshmallow in the centre of a teacake...



3. The pleasure on Ben's face when I gave him his wedding card - I think he likes to be thought of more than he lets on



4. That I love Ols enough to get so very upset on his behalf



5. Esme doing her comedy laptop head butting and mouse chasing

Grace in Bigger Things

I have been rather slack at updating this online, but my little note pad is up to date, I shall keep updating when I can till I’m back to where I’m supposed to be!

I have been off from the land of t’internet at a conference, and then at Dave’s mum’s. The conference went really well, I had a nice time seeing lots of people, being thought of as intelligent and physically not doing too bad either. I even managed some wine without feeling sick as I’d managed to hold off a bit on some of the tablets – hurrah!

The trip up to Dave’s mums, however, was less of a psychological success.

On numerous occasions I got left behind places and generally the fact that I’m not up to yomping about places was treated as if I was doing it on purpose to be difficult or awkward. No allowances were made for my creakiness, and this then caused tension because Dave then got cross because his brother and wife were making his wife feel like crap because she couldn’t keep up with an over energetic 4 year old. Or yomp at pace. Or get places as fast in the morning. Or stay up as late. I then felt bad that I was causing tension between them all and urgh. What a mess. I had felt all a bit pumped up about my success at the conference and my body’s ability to stick with it, and then to have this made me feel like I’d been run over by a steam roller. All my newly acquired self confidence vanished into dust, and I felt worse than I had done about my frustrating body than in a long time.

But, in light of this little trip, I am newly appreciative of all the people who do love me enough to slow down and make allowances. Like Dave, and the kids, who must temper much more of what they do with me and the speed that they do it at much more than I had kind of recognised. My work colleagues all walk at my pace when with me, and offer to get things from downstairs when I’m up in the office. My family do little bits and bobs like bring food when they come round for tea to help out, and on occasion my mum has helped me do cleaning and things.

I’m trying to think of this whole experience in a positive light – I’ve suddenly realised how many people actually do support me. There was a Chronic Babe blog carnival recently that focussed on who was in your “team” and I felt sad and lonely, and unable to join in, because it felt like my team only included Dave, Mum and Dad. But that’s not true at all. There are the kids, some of my work colleagues, the cats, Magic Janet the cleaner, Belle and Penny, my sisters’ friends who look in on me sometimes and after the cats when we’re away. My sister and her boyfriend are kind of on the edges but supportive when they can be as their lives are so mental themselves! There are the chronic babes, my WW ladies and my GP. My neighbours would help more if I could bring myself to ask (but I can’t – that’s my problem though!) and I have a wide network of friends that though I don’t see in person, do still think of me. So I guess this whole experience has been a learning one – I was less grateful than I thought, and more closed to the people who help me than I had thought. I am newly thankful, and will try to take time over the next week or so to tell these people how much I appreciate them. Because I really do.

Grace in Small Things: 80 of 365

I have a confession. This one is retrospective for yesterday, because I fell asleep.

1. Huge lie in, plus naps



2. Printing out our pictures for our photo frame we bought with our wedding voucher



3. Crossing more DIY things off the list, covering up drips and hanging a picture



4. Reading in the bath



5. Getting excited about the new version of Sherlock Holmes that starts next week…

Grace in Small Things: 79 of 365

1. Buying new clothes. In the sale!



2. Mozz :o)



3. Ben and Jerries Ice cream in the cinema... Mmmmm chocolatey...



4. Clearing away lots of the DIY stuff from the new rooms... almost there!



5. Having a little love in with Bertieface - he's such a purry furry tart!

Grace in Small Things: 78 of 365

1. Being able to work from home and snooze during the day



2. Snuggling up with an Esmecat purring away and licking my face



3. Seeing a new episode of Shooting Stars - made me cackle out loud!



4. Vin Diesel, and the fourth Fast and Furious movie....



5. Rasberries!

Grace in Small Things: 77 of 365

1. Seeing three bees at once on a lavender bush



2. Seeing one of those flowers that look like a bird growing in the garden three doors up from us. I didn't realise that they would grow outside round here



3. Opening the dishwasher in the morning, expecting to have to empty it, and it being empty. I love my Mozz.



4. Treating myself to a new pair of pyjama bottoms for £3.50 for losing 5lbs!



5. Coming home to find that magic Janet had been. I'd completely forgotten and came home to this magically clean awesome house. It made me cry.

Fix You

This is a bit of a break in the usual listy transmission, and a cross posting from my usual place - it just seemed like a very good place to put it. I am having a bad day today - two lots of tears at my desk already. Luckily, no one has caught me. I feel awful. Both physically and mentally. I want to fix things, but I don't even know where to start any more I feel so tired...

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The day before my wedding was a weird one. We pretty much had everything under control, I just needed two things from town before heading off for my massage which I had booked – a bit of a treat for my achey body. I got the jobs done, grabbed a coffee and got into the car, which was parked in a car park that was partly a building site at the time. I put the keys in the ignition, and the radio came on. Radio one were airing a live special recording of a Coldplay concert.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

Suddenly, it all hit me. All those months of planning and sorting and doing and focussing on the bigger goal, and it was all done. All ready. That was it. I’d like to think it was a big wave of relief, but I don’t really think it was. I think that I had been putting all my energies into the wedding, and had totally and utterly ignored how I had been feeling.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

And, with all the builders looking on at the tall redhead in the swanky soft top, I cried. The tears started falling and I couldn’t stop them. It wasn’t like a huge, sobbing crying, but it was totally uncontrollable. I felt like someone had died almost – like this was the end of me, and my body had betrayed me, and I was never going back to being the girl dancing in revolutions on her own, twinkling and flirting – and part of me didn’t want the last bit particularly but I wanted to be able to – and I wasn’t. And I was never going to have that freedom again that comes with being single – the freedom to pick and choose what to do totally and utterly selfishly; to eat porridge for tea because you can’t be bothered to cook, and to spend money on whatever the hell I wanted once the bills were paid. None of this was actually changing – things had been this way for years. And it wasn’t really that side of it that was bothering me, looking back. I mean, I think I did have a little grieving process about getting married – it is, after all, moving from one passage of your life into another – like leaving school – you’re excited about uni but sad and scared to leave the safety of home behind…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

More of it though, I think, was to do with my body. I got this weird achey tiredness and the pain and confusion that went with it not long after we got engaged, really, looking back. More precisely, I’d been having low grade episodes for years – even at uni I had what I can now see was a massive flare up of it all. Sometimes it does feel like bright white hot beams of pain inside my bones. Sometimes it’s just like being so tired that you feel drunk. I have – and had – become increasingly useless to my mind (though not to others) and pointless. The wedding was about the only thing holding me together – at no point had I thought past “as long as I can make it to/through the wedding/honeymoon”…

And through it all, Dave has loved me, and wanted to fix me.

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

He doesn’t care that I can’t always manage a staircase – he loves me - not the casing. Though he thinks the casing is pretty foxy. I can see that it drives him mad to not be able to fix me. He hates that I hurt, and that I get so worn out, and I often think that it must be worse, almost, to see the one you love beyond all others in pain. When I try and turn the tables and imagine him with this, it’s heartbreaking. I still cannot imagine that I deserve a man so good to me, so clever and handsome and caring – that I could possibly deserve this much.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

But the thing that kills me – and I had no idea at the time – organising the wedding was this awesome time of discovery. Of learning who we, the couple were – and, for me, learning who I was. I’d always just been who people wanted me to be, knowing that it wasn’t really me and feeling uncomfortable with it underneath, deep in my subconscious. But the wedding suddenly shone this big light on it, and let me be the creative, colourful, slightly eccentric person that I’d always been hiding underneath. I came out of my shell and basked, briefly in the glow of it all, knowing that I was safe in the love of my other half and whatever I did would be accepted on the day because no one causes that big a deal on someone’s wedding day if they think she is wearing a funny hat, you know?

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

So who am I now? Somehow I am too tired, without a big goal, to continue to wear the hat, and in too much pain to do much more than keep the housework up to date and make everyone’s tea and ferry all these people around when I can. I have no independent means of transport (and shanks pony is unreliable). I am coming to terms with the idea that I will never be a lighting designer up a ladder again, or dance the night away without paying the price horribly the next day. I think I’m getting round to mourning my health these days, and to the realisation that somewhere in all this – this becoming involved with Dave, and the kids, and my body giving up on being good - I have lost me. And it makes me sad.

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

And I think I’ve realised that I need to sort it out, and actually do something about it and find me again somewhere in all of this mess before it all gets too late and I’ve screwed things up. Because I do not want to screw things up. I want things to be brilliant, and I want to live my life, not exist it. And I know that this is something that I need to do myself, not that anyone else can do for me. Because as much as others want to fix me, and I want to be fixed, there is only one person who can turn this grey fog around into something better – and that is me. I don’t know where to start at the moment, and I’m feeling all a bit lost and confused and muddled, but I know that I want to start, and that is a lot closer than I’ve been for a long while.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

PS: If you’ve never heard this song – click here

Grace in Small Things: 76 of 365

1. Esme sat all curled up and settled purring on my lap as I worked



2. Mozz getting online on MSN to talk to



3. Bertie getting my attention and saying hello by stretching up his paw into my face and touching my nose, all with claws in – felt like a little gentle “are you alright?” rather than the usual “wake up! Love me!”



4. The Glads in the living room are even more in bloom, and, if possible, even prettier!



5. The view out of Lotties window- you can just see out whilst stood on the bed right over St Catherines hill and the downs…

Grace in Small Things: 75 of 365

1. Having a shower in the morning and not worrying about whether I had enough warm water, or scalding myself. First time since Friday – you don’t realise how good something is till you miss it!



2. The lovely Gladioli that Dave bought me the other day coming into bloom



3. Coming in to work to find posts from all three of my favourite bloggers in my RSS feed



4. Sitting on my sofa, crossed legged facing Mozz and talking like we used to when I lived in the flat…



5. Wearing my Dad’s jumper that he left behind yesterday. Snuggly.

Grace in Small Things: 74 of 365

1. Dad coming over for tea



2. Hot water in our house again – whoop!



3. Seeing Mum looking so well



4. Being married to the most awesome Mozz in the world



5. Bertie being so excited to see me when I came home that he had a little cat fart in with all the purring!

Grace in Small Things: 73 of 365

1. Being woken up, breifly, by a bacon sarnie and latte in bed



2. Dozing in bed till 1pm (:o0 I know! I was so tired though, and feel like I've caught up a little now)



3. Bertie having a secret love in with me



4. The silence of an empty house, beig able to hear the birds singing



5. Being married to a Mozz. I love him so much - he's just spectacularly lovely and brilliant and sexy. :o)

Grace in Small Things: 72 of 365

1. The Lady in Nero's telling me how pretty she thought my dress was



2. Wearing my pretty dress, big sunglasses and headscarf in the style of Grace Kelly with the top down in the car



3. Getting both radiators safely back on their respective walls - securely



4. Seeing Tony and him being lovely



5. Putting my own rib back - ahhh...

Grace in Small Things: 71 of 365

1. Walking home just in vest top and jeans with the sun warm on my skin



2. Giggling at the ending of Kung Fu Panda - it's just like me and Dave in bed at night!



3. Coming home to the cool calm that Magic Janet (tm) manages to instill in our house.



4. Fi saying that she misses me!



5. Discovering that we have a swift's nest under our eves, and seeing the birds swoop back and forth

Grace in Small Things: 70 of 365

1. Toffee Toffee Flapjack Pie - the name, the higgledy piggledy look, the taste. Made me smile just to see it in the shop!



2. Nice chap from Tribal helping me and offering extra help unpaid



3. Snuggling up with Mozz on the sofa knowing I did right



4. Feeling a little bit like work might be ok



5. Skinny Latte with cinamon sprinkles on top!

Grace in Small Things: 69 of 365

1. Talking to mum of the phone and hearing her feel so much better



2. Mozz's first company invoice has been paid - hurrah!



3. Putting my fabric stash away in drawers, looking at the shiny and feeling happy



4. Tunnock bars. Ate far too many, but loved them!



5. The satisfaction of creating a really neat seam between the lining of a dress and the zip

Grace in Small Things: 68 of 365

1. Seeing a blackbird with a strawberry, valliantly attempting to half carry it and half eat it



2. Hopefully sorting out my UCAS connection issue at work... fingers crossed...



3. Cuddling with Bertie curled up on Lottie's bed



4. Matching underwear



5. Floopy sleeves on my top

Today (well, last night) was harder than it should have been. I've struggled the last few days after having such an awesome Saturday (day 65) it's all been a bit downhill. I'm paying hard for having such an out and about day, and I'm cross about it, and feeling rather down in the dumps in general. It's still very useful to be doing this I think - I have time to sit and think good, happy thoughts every day rather than letting myself wallow horribly for weeks! Over 2 months now, how pleasing :)

Grace in Small Things: 67 of 365

1. Opening my eyes first thing to see a mug of coffee in a thermos flask that Dave had left for me at about 6.30 am so I can have coffee before I get out of bed. Have I mentioned that my husband is one of the most amazing men ever?



2. Writing a slightly arty diary entry that I've been trying to get out for a while.



3. Mum's Biscotti. Mmmm...



4. Bertie all curled up like a small furry cat shaped baby in my arms (by choice!) purring away



5. Feeling the silky soft fur of my new bear as I stroke his head (yes, the same bear, still. I think he was a good move!)

Grace in Small Things: 66 of 365

1. Watching Footloose sat on the sofa curled up with Dave



2. Being married to a Mozz. It never fails to fill me with this overwhelming sense of glee and surprise!



3. Having a lie in



4. Lots of new storage space to put my things in, everything will have a home! How exciting!



5. Taking my old clothes that don't fit that have been sat in bags on the floor for ages to the recycling point. They went to Scope, and that makes me feel good, as there were some lovely bits in there.

Grace in Small Things: 65 of 365

1. Our little trip to Ikea went well, we got lots of exciting things and without argument/recourse to divorce. Sweet.



2. Seeing lovely Penny and talking about shows



3. Living in such a lovely town. Seriously, Winchester rocks - and it is incredibly pretty to boot!



4. Giggling at the man with the Jellied eels



5. My sister being nice, and normal, not her usual frenetic confusing self

Grace in Small Things: 64 of 365

1. Crossing more htings off of lists



2. Having a soak in the bath and lovely smelling cream after



3. Greek yoghurt with Honey



4. The smell of clean washing



5. Winning things on ebay!



6. Mum's good news from her Rheumatologist and magic injection :o)

Grace in Small Things: 63 of 365

1. Getting smart client deployed at work, finally!



2. Catching up with Mark on MSN :o)



3. Singing with Lou to old songs



4. Sudden and pleasing trip out for tea and cocktails with Mozz



5. Scoring a copy of Footloose from a student at work!

Grace in Small Things: 62 of 365

1. Speaking to Nickki on MSN and being properly back in touch



2. Getting Lottie's room a bit more sorted - almost there now...



3. Berties love in with me, a big purrly loving ball of cat



4. Mum making me feel less insane, and less alone



5. Playing Labyrynth with Lottie and Dave

Grace in Small Things: 61 of 365

1. Making anchor links work in my wiki entry at work



2. Emailing Nickki - feels like communicating



3. Sorting out our filing - another thing off the list



4. Hearing that Jack is coming back to Tribal



5. Esme's comedy hunting of a moth - diving through the shelf of the living room table!

Grace in Small Things: 60 of 365

1. Warm sunshine on my arms walking t the dentists



2. Lottie waving at me like a loon from the car with Pam in



3. Talking to mum on the phone



4. Realising we've a weekend to ourselves for the first timein what feelslike ages this weekend, even though it isn't actually that long since we last did



5. Drinking with a straw. Made me disproportionately happy. I might do it more regularly, as i drank loads more that I would have normally!

Grace in Small Things: 59 of 365

1. Giggling at reliant robins being crashed and overturned on top gear



2. In bed, on my own, eating chocolate rainbow drops reading the paper.



3. Oli saying that my lunch was better than the England game. (shut up, I know it's not that great a compliment but I take it where I can get it!)



4. Laying on Lottie's bed looking out the window and Bertie coming to join me in the same position



5. Esme's nose on my face, licking me and loving me so much it made me cry

Grace in Small Things: 57 of 365

1. Little window frames made so that the cats can't get out the windows but the air can get in - a breeze!



2. Discovering that lime doritos = crunchy margharitas



3. Talking to dad on the phone. Very comforting.



4. Waking up from a deep sleep - That I actually got there!



5. Finally de-fuzzing self and feeling a bit better about myself

Grace in Small Things: 58 of 365

1. Mozz's Arse. I love my husbands bottom. It's beautiful.



2. Summery flowery warm smalls out of the window



3. Esme knowing that I needed cuddles and lovin'



4. Seeing people in the kitchen at work



5. Bertie chasing the torch light



6. Talking to Tony on the phone and having a catch up with his naughty badgering charm!

Grace in Small Things: 55 of 365

1. Working from home. Wednesdays rock. SO much nicer and less hurty and generally better than being in the office.



2. The feel of super soft Esme fur on my achey hands in the morning



3. Mozz and Oli’s joy at England getting through to the next round of the world cup



4. Seeing people supporting the armed forces that returned to Winchester and paraded past the end of our road. Really moving and good to see – especially that many that far out!



5. Seeint the sun glinting off the weathervane on top of the council that is shaped like a hog – I didn’t realise it was there and that I could see it from the cadet car park, and the sun was all mellow in the evening light shining and making it sparkle in a really golden way!

Grace in Small Things: 56 of 365

1. Half a pound off!!!



2. Nice chat on the phone with mum and dad



3. Fi’s text and news of a potential visit – Eee!



4. Wind in my hair, driving with the top down!



5. Seeing Penny waving like a loon and blowing kisses as she drove past me!

Grace in Small Things: 53 of 365

1. Giving away some of my aloe vera plants to people who love them



2. The Wysteria house up the road’s hedge smells even more gorgeous now the mock orange and some of the roses are out. Heaven to walk by.



3. Home time – walking home in the warm sun



4. Terrible chocolate. Nom. Ate it all…



5. Delicious toad in the hole – soggy and crisp and sweet and savoury!

Grace in Small Things: 54 of 365

1. The nice man at Brixton academy who sorted us out tickets to allow us into the disabled area. We’d bought seated tickets as I’m getting more wussy about the pain standing during a gig, but there was no lift at all to get upstairs. He managed to do it (and the other staff there) without once making me feel an inconvenience ,and that it was entirely for my welfare. Had a brilliant time because I wasn’t in pain or dreading the stairs – fabulous service. I wrote to tell them so too next day!



2. Seeing Scissor Sisters live – so much energy and excitement!



3. Listening to the beach boys on the cd player at work with Jeanette whilst everyone else was out of the office in a meeting



4. Mozz’s contract being confirmed



5. Karma getting to work at Mozz’s old workplace…

Grace in Small Things: 52 of 365

1. Fudge. Sugary melty goodness from lovely Lottie!



2. Happy Feet – a lovely film with happy dancing penguins – ahhh!



3. Lottie snuggling up to me on the sofa



4. Sleeping till Midday



5. Having a Mozz to cry little hot tears into his lovely strong neck and shoulder. Felt much better after that.

Grace in Small Things: 51 of 365

1. I went to the dentist and I don't need as many fillings as I thought I was going to. I was thoroughly proud as well when she told me that I had very little tartar build up - especially as I'd not been for 4.5 years... She said it was really surprising!



2. Snuggly hugs and a little quiet conversation in the kitchen with my dad



3. Sitting on the sofa with Mum and her showing me all her holiday photos



4. Dave being brilliant and lovely in the face of 0% mystique in our relationship.



5. Having time to revel in the return of magic Janet's clean house!

Grace in Small Things: 50 of 365

1. The Chronic Babe's awesome support



2. Working out some of my SQL and getting some results that actually mean something



3. Getting a lift home from Sarah - such a nice lady, and I really appreciated it as I was feeling pretty bloody awful



4. The Monkeh cooking tea whilst I cleared up from making cake - didn't have to do it all on my own



5. Hugh's excitement whilst telling me about how he is decorating his prospectove baby's room. Apple green hills and sky blue skies, and a little jungly theme :o)

Grace in Small Things: 49 of 365

1. Nice people at WW - lovely Sue checking up on me and my health and the lovely lady with the selling things.



2. Merangues and Strawberries on offer in Sainsburys - smelt them in the bag all the way home...



3. The Monkeh is staying less than she said she would (that's a bad thing to be pleased about, but I'm so tired and it's so nice to not have to worry about an extra person in the house sometimes!)



4. Bertie cuddles



5. Esme all curled up on my lap whilst I was trying to write kirsty's birthday card, headbutting the pen every 5 seconds - annoyng but incredibly cute!

Grace in Small Things: 48 of 365

1. Mum and Dad are home from the USA and I had a lovely soothing chatty phonecall with them



2. I finally managed to sort out my visio diagram



3. I'm in my points today - first time in ages!



4. Curled up on the floor in a little love fest with Bertie face - all purry and lovley



5. Waking up this morning all snuggled up with Mozz, his hand on my skin under my pyjamas

Grace in Small Things: 47 of 365

1. Cake. My cakes and baking is improving massively recently. Most pleasing.



2. Seeing Penny - it's nice to have such lovley company



3. Dancing with Mozz in the lounge after everyone else had gone to bed



4. Nice comments from the online WW ladies on our daily thread



5. I've got a TABLECLOTH on my table - and for one, breif moment, the table was clear enough to put it on!

Grace in Small Things: 46 of 365

I have a confession.

I couldn’t think of anything good about yesterday, yesterday. It was a horrible, nightmare day. I ended up coming home from work early in floods of tears, it was that sort of day. And at the end of it all I just wanted to go to sleep, I didn’t want to think over my day of aches and pains and hurt and upset and stupidity and tears, I just wanted it to go away. So today, I present a rather pared down skim of the good things about yesterday.

1. No one died.
   
2. No one got physically hurt.
   
3. I didn’t tell anyone to fuck off, to their face, in an unprofessional manner.
   
4. Jeanette was nice to me and sent me home.
   
5. I got to bed, safely.
   

Yeah. That good. Bit concerned for my mental health at the moment. Must try and buck up a bit....

Grace in Small Things: 45 of 365

1. Snuggling up with Mozz
   
2. Dinishing a Sudoku puzzle
   
3. Getting lots of our washing done
   
4. Not cooking tea
   
5. Having Mozz all to myself, just for a couple of hours.
   

Grace in Small Things: 44 of 365

1. Buying cheeky chocolate covered pretzels with the kids to eat before Dave picked us up from town. Sneaky.
   
2. Repotting my aloe vera plants and showing Oli how they grow and multiply
   
3. Snuggling in bed with Mozz and Lottie in the morning, sleepy and warm
   
4. Postcards arriving from both the kids New York trip and Mum and Dad’s trip to LA/San Francisco
   
5. Seeing Bertie sat on Mozz’s lap watching the football
   

Grace in Small Things: 43 of 365

1. Seeing Lovely Belle, if briefly.
   
2. Sitting in bed, in my jamas, watching a film eating ice cream with Lottie.
   
3. Playing ball with Lottie with a light up ball in the dark – very silly and much giggling ensued!
   
4. The insanity of my sister’s move mostly missed me.
   
5. Having my old bed back, and thinking of all the happy things that I’ve done in it, or got ready for in the room with it…
   

Grace in Small Things: 42 of 365

1. Deleting many many MST records from the system I support at work – we’ve halved the number in existence. Lovely.
   
2. Knowing that I’m not working tomorrow
   
3. The pretty, pretty cards I ordered yesterday afternoon arrived! And they are pretty
   
4. Mozz being offered a 6 week contract…
   
5. Text from Belle saying that she’d love to meet up for a coffee.
   

Grace in Small Things: 41 of 365

1. Lottie, nibbling at my neck and pretending to eat me
   
2. Esme snuggled up cosily on my lap, purring
   
3. Neatly darned trousers – I’ve still got the skilz. You can barely see the huge hole was ever there!
   
4. Small dark smooth square of Valharona
   
5. Buying pretty, pretty greetings cards on the interwebs.
   

Grace in Small Things: 40 of 365

1. Stopping to smell the yellow roses that have suddenly appeared in the beautiful smelling wysteria man's garden



2. The lovely colour of the light this evening - all golden on the rooftops



3. My Colleague, Jeanette giving me a present of a new A5 pad (I like these better than standard ring pads, it's better for my lists, and we don't have any at work!)



4. Having a really nice conversation with Shel on MSN about music, sharing new songs and tastes



5. Watching Springwatch - particularly the kingfishers and woodpecker chicks!

Grace in Small Things: 39 of 365

1. Beautiful new red roses on the walk home and the smell of the drizzle on hot pavement



2. Finally getting going on my nemesis - a proposal document



3. Eating a Fry's turkish delight bar, covertly, in the dark... sucking the chocolate off the outside then the warm rosey goo....



4. The smell of Oli's head - hot, damp and a little bit like shampoo!



5. The feeling of creeping satisfaction that I got from looking at Oli's wardrobe, nearly finished....

Grace in Small Things: 38 of 365

1. Knocking some more jobs off of our list. Painty ones at that. Nearly there in three rooms now...



2. Sitting eating fritata and salad on the sofa in the sunshine with Mozz



3. Dozing off on Oli's bed with Esmecat curled up into me whilst Mozz paints... Oops...



4. Coming in well under points for once at the weekend - strangely satisfying!



5. Watching the England vs Rest of World charity game of footy. Very silly, and brilliant commentary - much more my cup of tea than a proper game!

Grace in Small Things: 37 of 365

1. Getting my card back from the lady in Barclays - the bank machine ate everyone's last night by all accounts. I was so greatful to get that back - so much nonsense to change if it hadn't been there. Also, I never knew that Barclays was such a pretty building inside. A whole freize of shells with little pearls in 3d round the ceiling. Lovely.



2. Meeting my ister and Jonathan for a very lovely, cool breakfast of nicely poached eggs and toast in a cool cellar. I didn't know they had a cellar in Monde. It's nice.



3. Laying on the grass outside the cathedral, in the warm, having a slight doze. Ah, contentment.



4. Snogging on the sofa. Hot and sticky and skin on skin.. Happy days.



5. Reflecting on what a nice evening I had yesterday. And remembering how I put cat biscuits on Dave's chest whilst he was snoring, drunk on the floor and giggling as the cats walked on him and ate them, sniffed, and retreated in vague disgust. Hahaha... cats eating biscuits off his chest. Naughty giggly thoughts. Hehehe

Grace in Small Things: 36 of 365

On a bit of paper upstairs!

1. Seeing and spending time with Ian, who I've not seen in ages, and is just so lovely!


2. Being sat with Kate watching Lilly - my sisters pretty lighting and pleasant company all round


3. The nice lady at the cash machine who tried to help me when the machine ate my card. She and her husband were as nice and as helpful as they could manage in the circumstances, but it made me smile to think that there are nice people out there who stop to help people.


4. Hearing Robert Miles Children come on the radio, whilst in the car with the top down. Bliss. Like the summer of 1997 all over again (only, with a swanky car!)


5. Being hit, quite suddenly, by the realisation that I am prettier, cleverer and more secure than the lasses who were flirting with my Mozz in the eveing. Watching them with him I was overcome with this lovely secure totallyunfussed, unconcerned and unjealous feeling - I know I'm safe in his love. :o)

Grace in Small Things: 35 of 365

1. The smell of Chanel No 5 on my hand in the morning sat at my desk – a little reminder of lovely things
   
2. The warmth of the sun on my back walking home from work
   
3. Watching Bertie chase the little refractive lights from my sun catcher hanging in the window up the wall. Daft cat trying to stretch up the wall as tall as he can, and looking for them behind the painting…
   
4. The smell of the gorgeous wysteria up the road in full bloom how – heady, sweet and summery
   
5. Erasing lots of records from our main system at work – we’ve been trying to archive stuff for the last 2 years and we finally just bit the bullet with it!